This poem is a tribute to my son, who transitioned a few years ago after struggling with depression and drugs (street and prescribed, unfortunately) for years, in a spiral that he was unable to pull out of, and no family, friends, hospital, doctor or treatment center was able to help him find his way through.

My second son
on his eighteenth year,
second day, eleventh month
couldn’t deal with life
not one more day
not one more minute
just needed to quit it
and so he’s gone.
He’d have tried before
to end it all
but not succeeded
until his fall
attempts incomplete
until he was sure
we’d have all
given up on him.
Then unexpected
that fateful night
boy who cried wolf
gave his final fright
when no one expected
couldn’t be resurrected
got his wish to end it
time for transcendence.
Left us behind to spend
our remaining years
without his presence
brother and son
we miss you
forever love you
stuck in this hell
without you.
Gone too soon
to see your light
keep shining bright
past your demons
far too daunting
shattered dreams
forever gone, yet
never forgotten.
Here we are left
standing, wondering
what if, and why
couldn’t you just
get through it
some miraculous way
it’s so hard each day
we’re missing you.
Beautiful soul
too soft for this place
couldn’t make
heads or tails
of each day
all the struggles
you endured
my love couldn’t cure.
Died inside each day
we couldn’t save you
from yourself though
we tried, I cried
you cried, and denied
me of having you
reach full potential
now ashes, handfuls.
Cause you’re gone
no one will know
your heart’s desires
reigning in those fires
to shine outside
your inner prisoner
escaped, set free
and so it is to be.
We’re stuck here playing your rules because you left opted out, no more game over your body is gone but sweet angel you’re never forgotten.
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